London, June 20 - Rapper P Diddy, real name Sean Combs, fears he may never find himself in a long-term relationship.

The 40-year-old, who has had five kids with three different partners - admits he "tries to be fly for a woman" every single day.

But Diddy doubts that he will ever beat his 10-year, on-off affair with ex-model Kim Porter, 37, because he has "always f***ed love up".

"When I wake up in the morning, what I do, I do for a woman. I wake up, I get dressed, I'm tryin' to be fly for a woman," the Mirror quoted him as saying.

"I've been successful in a lot of things, but I haven't been successful in love. And that's not just me finding someone to love, that's me loving someone back and being mature enough to sacrifice and not be selfish," he added.

"I'm not an easy person to love, that's the thing," he added. (ANI)